A Quick Update
Hi Friends… Julie here for a quick update. I’ve been on hospice now for almost eight weeks. (As a reminder, hospice is basically started when no more oncology treatments will be given and comfort becomes the main goal for the terminally ill person. I am still doing some natural protocols.) It’s been a weird two months to say the least. Some days I am riddled with pain and sometimes vomiting, etc with so, so much fatigue. Other days I feel almost normal if I stay still. What remains a constant is that almost all movement will trigger pain and fatigue. I can get around the house slowly, but if I try to do a little cleaning or anything, I will pay the price for a few days with severe pain on the right side of my torso. You may wonder what I do with my time. I visit with my Mic and my kids a lot. My extended family comes by a lot just to hang out. We set up a few visitors a week. I stream a lot of shows. Reading is difficult. I listen to the Bible app and hymns. I pray and pray some more. I occasionally do a little writing. I sleep. And then I sleep more. Honestly, I probably sleep more than I do anything else. I feel calm most of the time. Yet, seeing the sadness in my family and friends is heart-wrenching. When I am with people, we are generally spending time in “a house of mourning.” All of my interactions are heavy, which you can imagine, is difficult. There is not a way to “fix” this. It is where we are. Of course there is some laughing, some chit-chat, but it is heavily clouded.
Physically I don’t feel like I am doing worse in the last eight weeks and not better either. It’s all very up and down and hard to measure. I hope to share more soon, but I just wanted to let everyone know what’s been going on. We are thankful for all the help people have been giving us… prayers, cards, lots of meals and more. We appreciate you all.
I will leave you with these verses from the Apostle Paul from 2 Corinthians, chapter 4:
It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you to himself. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
May we all be renewed inwardly day by day!